Woman – Age 46

I was so tired of fighting everything, I had no more energy to live.

I’m 46 years old and I have seen and been to all sorts of therapists since I was 13. I’ve been in several institutions and followed many different therapies over a 30 year period, because of bouts of severe depression, sexual abuse, eating disorder, self-hatred, destructive behaviour and suicidal thoughts.

There came a time when I just couldn’t do it anymore. I was so tired of fighting everything, I had no more energy to live. I spent most of my days in bed, while other people managed my family together with my husband.

Somebody connected me to Gideon and Jennifer. They were the last ‘therapy’ I was willing to try. As we went over my entire history, I discovered that I had a lot of open doors, through which the devil had come in to steal, kill and destroy. It was not easy to close all of them and I experienced a lot of shame, guilt and insecurity in the process.

When it came to forgiveness, I sure needed your help to get the words out of my mouth.

It’s been 9 months since then, and I am no longer taking any anti depressives. I am a mom again to my family and a wife to my husband. I no longer feel like my body is dirty and used, and I am working on developing healthy eating habits.

I thank God for what He did for me through these people. I thank Him that I could be completely honest about everything that happened in my life.

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